5 am Thoughts

The raw and unfiltered musings of a neurospicy baddie navigating life, love, and everything in between. These are the thoughts that wake me up at 5am – and hopefully, they'll give you something to think about too.

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F*ck Logic—Feel It to Heal It

They told us to be strong, not soft. Logical, not emotional. But my emotions? They've always been my truth-tellers. In this season, I’m not shrinking or second-guessing—I’m trusting my feelings and letting them guide me home. This blog is for the Browngirl who’s ready to stop gaslighting herself and start honoring the wisdom in her own body. You don’t need logic to validate your experience. You need space to feel. Let’s begin there.

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The Awakening — The "Oh Shit" Moment

There comes a time when life stops whispering and starts shaking the table.
When the survival roles you've worn like armor crack open — and the truth you've been running from stares you dead in the face.

In this raw and powerful reflection, I share the "Oh Sh*t" moments that shattered my illusions, cracked open my spirit, and sparked my journey into intentional living.
From decades of silent caregiving to craving deeper connection, to confronting my mortality as an unsupported adult — this is the story of what happens when a Browngirl stops surviving and starts choosing herself.

Because awakening isn’t pretty.
It’s sacred.
And once you wake up?
You can't ever go back to sleep.


Read the full story and start your own Awakening journey.

#ImHer #MainCharacterEnergy #BrowngirlExperience

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Rest Sis

Revolutionary Rest: It's Time to Prioritize YOU. Black women, we've carried the weight of the world. Today, and every day, we reclaim our right to rest. Discover your guide to self-care and learn how to prioritize your well-being. #BlackWomenRest

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Second First Chances and Slippery Slopes

Dawn's highly anticipated second first date takes an unexpected turn when a patch of ice leads to a hilarious tumble and a playful snowball fight. Will her romantic evening be ruined, or will it lead to a deeper connection? This heartwarming story reminds us to embrace the unexpected and, of course, use ice melt!

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Navigating Grief: A Black Woman's Journey

Grief is a universal experience, but for Black women, it's often complicated by societal pressures, cultural expectations, and the weight of historical trauma. This blog post explores the unique challenges Black women face when navigating loss, offering personal insights, coping strategies, and resources for healing. It's a space for vulnerability, connection, and celebrating the resilience of Black women.

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Browngirl Lost

What happens when your ex shows up at your book reading? The Browngirl finds out in this excerpt from her tour kickoff. "Browngirl Lost" becomes more than just a story as a Q&A turns into a raw confrontation, revealing a complex history of love and miscommunication.

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Sis, Don't Be Silent: Your Story Matters!

Black women, it's time to break the silence and own our narratives. This blog explores the power of sharing our experiences, celebrating our wins, and embracing our struggles. Learn how to reclaim your story and inspire future generations. #BlackGirlMagic #OwnYourNarrative

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Unleashing Your Inner Dream Weaver: A Journey of Fear, Faith, and Freedom

Ever felt a strange resistance to truly letting yourself dream without limits? Like, almost a fear of imagining the life you truly desire? That was me. I'd unconsciously learned to equate happiness with pain, believing that if I dared to soar, something bad would inevitably happen. This fear not only kept my dreams in check, it even cast a shadow over my faith.

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Fuck Feminism, Respectfully of Course

As Black women, we often find traditional feminism overlooking our unique struggles. Womanism emerges as a framework that centers our experiences, prioritizing community and cultural heritage. Unlike feminism, which can focus on individualism, womanism addresses both gender inequalities and systemic racism.

In this blog, we will explore the key differences between womanism and feminism and encourage reflection on our identities. Join us as we embrace a movement that authentically uplifts our voices and experiences, creating an inclusive space that honors every aspect of who we are.

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Being Qualified Can’t Out Perform a Racist System

In reflecting on the recent election and the journey of Vice President Kamala Harris, I've come to appreciate the complex dynamics of success and recognition, particularly for Black women. Despite her impressive accomplishments, Harris’s candidacy underscores the harsh reality that structural disadvantages often overshadow hard work and talent. This blog explores the 'Black Excellence complex' and the oppressive narrative that many feel they must overcome. It invites you to redefine your worth, embrace your authenticity, and create spaces that celebrate your identity. Together, let's navigate the challenges and celebrate the resilience that propels us forward.

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